In an Instant You Touched Our Hearts Forever

A year ago today I held a tiny, beautiful, little boy in my arms for a short time. Today I will choose to remember how perfect he felt in my arms, his tiny cute feet, and the way his Daddy looked at him as we said goodbye. I have said often that July 20, 2010 was the most horrifying day of my life...but it was also our second born son's birthday. I will not focus on the nightmare-like things that happened that day. Our son may not have been able to stay with us here on Earth but he accomplished a lot in his short time. He pulled our entire family closer together and reminded us of what is truly important. He helped Mike and I to grow stronger together, showed me how many good people there are in the world that just want to help, and unleashed a strength inside of me I never would have known was there. Although I lost my other two boys 16 days later, that in my mind is separate. They have their day and today is their older brother's day. I think about what cake I might have made him for his birthday today. I long to see him making a mess as he takes a bite. Those things will not happen, but I know he is in a place far greater than I could provide. Johnny- I love you and miss you so much...Happy Birthday sweet boy.